Indecent Decency.

My Apologies.

2011-11-21T23:38:00.001-08:00

I've honestly have tried to be the best I could be. I am sorry if I've let you down. I thought I could be a better girlfriend. I never thought I would be this person. I know time and time again you reassure me that we're okay. But I am not. I just feel like I've become who I never wanted to be.

I am sorry.

Countless mind wrecking situations.

2011-10-29T04:14:00.001-07:00

Forgive this sloppy blogpost as i am blogging with my iPhone. I can't get all the fonts and things like that done right.

Technically, I am just here to express how I feel. Sadly, I have no other out let.

I don't know why, more and more, I am beginning to loose myself. I feel like I am beginning to get swallowed up in my own shadow. I began to keep more and more of my thoughts to myself. Rather keeping it in. Of all the company I have around me, the happiness I share, I just don't know why I don't stay happy for long anymore.

Believe me, I know when it's pms and this isn't one of those times.
I admit, I am going through a hard time.

Maybe it's cos I've always kept quiet when I am unhappy. Therefore, the people close to me can't tell whether I am alright or not. Maybe it's something I am used to.

Of recent nights, I can feel the tears streaming down my face before I close my eyes and wander off into dreams. Of late, I find myself throwing myself into dark feelings even when nothing hits me.
... I am starting to think I might be depressed for some kind of unknown reason.
Even my mom thinks that I've lost my spark, my smile, my laughter. She goes on saying, ".. Everything about you seems to be so forced nowadays. Even your smile doesn't seem as genuine as before."

I find myself in this place where, all I see are dark clouds and grey skies. All I can hear is the sound of my own voice haunting me. All I can feel is hurt and all I can see is my own face betraying my very own thoughts.

I've learned to appreciate the things and people around me more but I am beginning to wonder, "does anybody even care that I am still around?" people seem to be going out, having fun, while I seem to be just left hanging sitting at the bench at the side of the field. Could it be because I don't fit in anymore? Could it be because I am less likable now. Well, if you ask me, I choose to think people rather not bother.

People say they're worried about me. That they see the unhappy side of me. "Are you doing okay?" Well, yeah. I feel their concern but just 2 sentences later, "Wanna go out tomorrow?" wow, I sometimes ponder and ask myself, "is it me or, does it just seem like all I sometimes have left is myself?"

I won't doubt the fact that I still have so many around me. I won't doubt the fact that people still care.

I guess nobody get's me. Like the saying goes, "sometimes you'll just have to stand on your own two feet. Rely on nobody."

Maybe that's the crossroad where I am at now. Balancing on what i feel and what i see. Don't know what i want anymore. Just maybe.

And one day, people will just get sick and tired of watching me this way. Tired of reassuring me. Tired of bothering. I guess when that day comes, I have no one but myself to blame.

1.59am

2011-10-05T11:01:00.001-07:00

Walked down to my dining room and back up to my room. Did not turn any lights on. While doing that, I realized something about my thoughts-

When I tell a person that I don't expect anything from them, that's when I expect the most.

Terrible. I have to stop this.

Oh wow, blogger app. First time here using your simple services. Though I could use a little more fonts and colours and all but.. you'll do.

Long time old friend.

2011-10-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggerworld.

It's been awhile since i've been here. I am not sure if i've got much to say though but i'll blog now since i feel it. Funny thing, i was here in March while i was in the Big Apple but i deleted my post because let's just say things got a little.. stupid.

Plus, i've been an emotional wreck lately. Why? I have no bugging idea.

Anyway, life now i must say is pretty fulfilling. Maybe except for the part that i've been slacking waay too much and i've gotta really start studying for my exams but other than that, well, i am happy.

Along the past month or so, i learnt a little more about myself. A little more about life. A little more about my God-given presence. Ah, September was really really a pms-ing bitch. But nevermind, like they say, "what hurts you only makes you stronger." and i stand to testify that as the truth. And i am glad that whatever happened, happened.

I've grown to be more inspired by more things now. I guess i've never been a person to sit down at the study table, having my books turned opened. I know myself more as a person that would take a 6hour walk on a pretty beach just taking photo's and enjoying my time. At that part of my life, i guess i have been a let down to my parents. Its in the asian blood, i presume. Education always comes first. Not to say i don't put my education priority, i guess there are more things to life than straight A's. I have average grades. except for my chinese paper. oh the irony. I don't see whats so bad about doing more than just getting straight A's. Yes, i may be called being a, how do you say, selfish, naive, dumb teenager for sounding like i couldn't give a hoot about my studies but then again, i did say that my grade's are average. I might not be happy with them all the time but, i move on.

So many things that i want to do, so many places that i want to be. So many moments i still wanna capture. Ah life.

I am praying that life will continue to be a blessing for me. As i know, being brought up in a Christian family, i have God to thank for that and i am grateful. As the year passed, i grew more distant from His ways but i wanna go back. Not to mention the continuous support from my family, boyfriend, friends and certain relatives. I am pretty sure i can make something out of this.

Hopefully, i'll be here again soon. and the studying begins. 7th of December- end chaper.

Hello, new life.

"Happiness cannot be bought with money. Happiness is found within the soul."

Tuning into: Five For Fighting- Superman

Baby i must confess, we were the perfect mess.

2010-11-21T04:58:00.000-08:00

I miss ya'.
i do.

Love like woe.

2010-11-18T04:14:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wanted to believe someone so badly, trust that soomeone so badly but theres always some dumb setback?

You're giving me that exact feeling. Why can't you just be different this time around.

I can sit around waiting all day. but someday, when i stop, you'll have to realise its not my fault anymore.

Up up outta here.

2010-11-02T07:51:00.000-07:00

&its true.
How am i gonna tell you and want you to believe me when you seem so caught up already?

I would hate to see you hurt considering what we've been through together.

Here we go.

2010-11-02T07:24:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, baking with the Interactors of ICCPJ. :)

A good way to kick of a nice Saturday morning.
OHMY.SEPETEYES.AND.RYANTEO.AT.THE.BACK.

We're not to shabby, huh? ;)

&then Papa Rich for lunch. Thats another story.

Stuck in the middle with you.

2010-11-01T06:03:00.000-07:00

It hurts when you're talking to me about her.

I don't know why.

I would never believe that she would love you like the way i did.

How could i possibly tell you what she's been thinking? Let you fall.

Its a bloody death trap.

2010-10-25T09:47:00.000-07:00

What i've learnt the hard way:

-Sometimes, love is so unfair. The more you sacrifice, the more you get hurt. And when you've given your best to someone you love, it never seems like its enough. Which resolves to stupid behaviour that could ruin you.

-As we dance to "Purple Rain"

2010-10-25T09:13:00.000-07:00

Last Friday was datenight with Shweta Nandy. :) and i tell you, these are only a small fraction of the picture's we took.

I only get to see her thrice a year, mind you & i've known her for 10years. Gosh, we're old.

I'll see you soon alrighty, dear? x

Like you're the only one who knows my heart.

2010-10-22T23:56:00.000-07:00

HI HI HI.

Yes, i know, i don't blog as often anymore. And its just all because i lost all my inspirations to blog. The thing is, life's been a big struggle. I am tired of staying strong and forcing myself not to break down.

I am not but then again, life got better so here i am. :)

I am sitting at Old Town Kopitiam down at Taipan right now with Leandra.

Life after finals could never feel better.

Went to the gym early in the morning with her and decided to catch up with time.

Mhmm, Rosewater float with ice-cream just picked my lame day up.

Btw, Leandra the bitch tempted me with the drink. 'nuff said.

Anyways, life's been going great and i wanna catch up with some lost time.

&&& I can't wait for District conference at Royal Bintang Resort, Seremban! It's gonna be a blast.

I'll be back soon. MyChonny's waiting for me. HAHAHA.
Byebye, love.

Can?

2010-10-09T23:58:00.000-07:00

Hello, world. :)

Gosh, it feels so different blogging now. I haven't had time to blog in a long time but somehow it seems like forever.

Life's been more or less the same just, without any dramaaaaaa. Pfft.

& yes, exam season is here and i really needa catch up on lost time.
Keeping my blog here ain't easy but i am still tryng my best to come back every once in awhile.

So, 'till after exams! Kay, bye.

Break up's and heartaches. Hahaha. I'd rather jump off a cliff. :)

Je'taime petit ami.

2010-09-19T00:29:00.001-07:00

What the heck lah. He's phone is being retarded.

Mel, SUCK. IT. UP. AND. GO. TO YOUR. ROOM. AND. SLEEP. NOW.

you're not gone yet, are you?

You and I both.

2010-09-04T08:58:00.000-07:00

Just a few more days! :)
I am crazy nervous.

Lets run away and don't ever look back.

2010-09-02T06:49:00.000-07:00

I am in love with this movie.

I'll marry you. :P *Jokes!

Happy 17th Birthday!

2010-08-31T09:14:00.000-07:00

Adam, Adam, Adam,
I sent you that nice long message already didn't i? :) *Shh.

So, i won't say anymore here.

Happy 17th Birthday! ♥
Now you know how much appreciate you. :)

Cry For You- Enrique Iglesias.

2010-08-31T09:13:00.000-07:00

Promises made.
I love you. :)

There's not a single thing i would change.

2010-08-29T05:03:00.000-07:00

I am a nutcase.

I somehow am really looking forward to go back to school tomorrow.

I missed too many days already anyways.

AND AND,

I got my blogging mojo back. *claps.

I'll update again soon, a national holiday is on its way.

The silence is louder than any thunder.

2010-08-26T22:07:00.000-07:00

Yes, i know.
I need to be a better blogger.

It wasn't just a dream. :)

2010-08-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

Be my escape.

HI HUBBY! :D

I love you just so much.

You don't ever have to question my love.

2010-08-21T00:14:00.000-07:00

... but, i didn't.

I know.

This few days has been so rocky for me. Especially for me.
I hear so many things. This&that.
But, what am i to do? I am in love with you.

The things i hold on to, cling on to, to make sure you're okay.
All the damn things i do to make sure things are going to be okay.
I love you.

Through so many things i've heard & felt,
i still do love you.

I just want this to stop. As in this emotional shitnits to stop.
I want to go back to the start.

I love you.

"There's somethin' that I've got to say

You're always with me

Even though, you're far away

Talkin to you on my cell

Just the sound of your voice

Makes my heart melt

Oh girl,

well it's true

I'm all about you

I'm all about us

No, baby, you never have

To question my love

And every night

There's a new crowd

But it's always you

That I'm singing about

There is only one these words

Are going out to

Oh girl, I'm all about you

I know you worry someimes

Some other girl will make me forget you're mine

There's not a doubt in this world

That anyone could take the

Place of my number one girl

It's true

I'm all about you

I'm all about us

No, baby, you never have

To question my love

And every night

There's a new crowd

But it's always you

That I'm singing about

There is only one these words

Are going out to

Oh girl, I'm all about you

When i close my eyes i can see you

It's like your right here

And this feeling's only gettin' stronger

You're with me everywhere

I'm all about you

I'm all about us

No, baby, you never have

To question my love

And every night

There's a new crowd

But it's always you

That I'm singing about

There is only one these words

Are goin' out to

Oh girl, I'm all about you."

you know why i love this song.

Eight of August, Twenty-ten. ♥

2010-08-13T17:55:00.000-07:00

This past one week has been the best week i've ever went through.

Have you ever went out with your friends, and they start playing with your phone.
Next thing you know, the sweetest guy just texted you while they were having fun on your phone.
You try grabbing your phone back fom them, but they already saw it. They turn around to looking at you going:
"Awwww. Oh look! Mel's blushing already!"
That very same person who was waiting for me to reply his text was making me blush too.

& i wouldn't ask for anyone better than that.

We've had our ups and downs this past week.

But, i am standing behind him, main sure that when he falls,

i am right at the back holding on to him,
making sure that as long as i can help it, i would protect him.

He made me realise that love was much more than just saying "i love you."
Its true, actions do speak louder than words.

He made me feel like i as flying in the sky with the clouds.

He stays around worrying about me just as much as i worry bout him.

&I promise, whenever he's at his lowest, i'll always be there to pick him back up.

I wanna wake up by his side every morning,
i want him to know that i'll always be by his side whenever things go wrong.
We'll wake up each morning in each other's arms.
Feeling each other's skin, breathing each breath together, looking into each other's eyes, & i'll fall deeper and deeper in love with you.
You wanna know why?
Beacause he's the cutest, sweetest, most caring, most honest person in the world.
I am so lucky to even be in love with him.
He neve fails to make me smile when i can't.
Make me laugh when i am bout to cry.

We talk all the time & i cannot ever get enough of him. :')

I wanna stay in your arms.
Whether you come over to my place or whether i am over at your place.
I'll stay close.
Kiss you on your cheeks, staying in your arms.
Going through the day together.
Time would be in our hands and we'll spend all the rest of the days together.

I love you so so much, O.W.Z.Z.

080810,031294. ♥

Do we know what we're fighting for?

2010-07-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up super early today for Installation '10.

Got to school late at about 7.15am when i was suppose to be there at 6.30am.

&Installation was good! :)

Except for a few things here and there but still, good.

Had fun with the bunch and after that,

headed over to MidV to meet Adam.

Decided to take a cab with KarKei&Alicia.

Got there and bought the movie tickets for,

3D somemore! :)

Cutecutecute. 9/10.

Had McD's before going in &had a great time laughing&catching up.

& of course, The movie was awesome except for the usual super cold air conditioning.

Headed back to KL Sentral with Adam and then took different paths to go home.

Performance practice was after that &then mummy's birthday dinner at night. &daddy got an awesome present for mummy that complimented the entire day very well. :)

Okay, &now, i am in the middle of some shizz that i really rally wish never happened. So, that is why the way i am blogging at this very moment is so lame. Yes, i was aware of that.

Goodnight, bitches, tomorrow's coming &i don't have a good feeling about it.

Baby, don't kill me tonight.

2010-07-19T07:25:00.000-07:00

I don't know.

Things just haven't been going my way recently. Somehow, i just don't feel what i potray on the outside.

Whats wrong? You ask. I don't know.

I haven't a million gazillion "i don't know's" running in my mind.

Its as if i am some dumbo who really really doesn't know anything.

I ask myself. Am i truly happy?

But i don't find the answer.

To me, i will never be truly happy until the day i get what i want, or at least die.

I've been thinking;

"well, if i leave. Do i leave anything behind? Do i even leave a trace of what i remind people of?"

It doesn't seem as if leaving is gonna make a difference. Tho', deep in somewhere, i know it will.

I'll miss so many people&things that if i list them out, it'll take me, well,

what seems like forever.

I don't wanna go on&on anymore.

Seriously, flirting? Mhmm, i wonder how far you'll get with that. ('cos it hurts me when it seems like idc.)

Lilian's party this Sunday, i so wanna go!
Sharmaine's birthday bash &her anniversary with brother, sigh, i cannot miss that.

Dalam Hidupku.

2010-07-17T02:23:00.000-07:00

Love you, not?

Just gonna stand there &watch me burn.

2010-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

Well, yeah.

Cheer has been over for a week now &i really am lazy.
I just can't bring myself to slowly update my blog with tons&tons of picture's from the event.

I am sure there're a hundredthousand of them on Facebook already so no need for any of that. :)

&the week hasn't been very nice to me either, haha.

Tied up to the core.

2010-07-14T07:16:00.000-07:00

I am well aware that i haven't been updating. :)

Well, life's been busy and i don't have much time to come online and do all the things i use to do online anymore. That does not include watching those dirty things you people have in mind. :P

So anyways, i really don't wanna bore you guys,
I'll have a super proper update, soon.

X.

Put your records on, tell me your favourite song.

2010-07-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

Thursday, already? D:

You know, i have been dreading Saturday. There are so many things going on and i don't know if i wanna be that tight on schedule.

Hmmm.

&you know what? I just lost my blogging mojo, again.

I changed my mine too.

Saturday's gonna be flippin' awesome. :)

Picture's of the Cheer & Adam's gig will be up by Sunday. If, my camera doesn't get jammed up with picture's by then.
&i tell you, right, i am so pleased with Calyx's Cheer '10 shirt this year. :)

&&one more thing, that stupid octopus was right. Germany, lost. So, that leaves me with Netherlands 'cos i do not want to be on Spain's side for the sake being on the same side as everybody else.
But since i am so, uhm, badlucked (is that even a word?) right, i have this sence that tells me that all the teams i go for, will lose. Bummer.

OH. &my Accounts tutor who comes to my house every Thursday to teach me the bloody subject is the funniest man, ever. HAH.

cos when i am kissing you my senses come alive.

2010-07-05T07:07:00.000-07:00

My Saturday is going to be so jam packed.

Saturday.

Seafield's Carnival, Cheer '10, practice's & some gig at Sivik Hall at night.

which means, i have to forgo at least 2 things. D:

&i cannot thank Briana Tan enough to agreeing to going with me for the gig on Saturday night. If i could just find him to get an extra ticket. :)

Babe, yes, i owe you one.

Okay, tuition was awesome, i don't know why. &i have to go now.

Heart Shaken.

2010-07-04T05:26:00.001-07:00

Its been a day now, and i really wanna talk to you.

I don't know where you are, or what you're doing, but i really need you now.
You know, when it seems like theres noone else around, you're always there.

I don't know if you got my text's, but i wish i could get a reply.

I am always afraid that we'd loose our friendship.

&I really don't know why.

Sigh.

Have fun, i am out.

&This is how we roll.

2010-07-04T05:05:00.000-07:00

There's about a hundred and fifty picture's all together but i will just stop here.

Girls, its been 10years, &we've never left each other's sides.

Thank you for always being such a great bundle of joy! :)

&yes, Josh Duhamel, *melts. HAHAHHA.

I love you bitches!

One shot, baby. :)

2010-07-03T08:01:00.000-07:00

Thank you, thank you & thank you.

I've never felt luckier. :)

You opened my eyes to alot of new possibilties.

We'll do this again, soon, i promise.
I said so before i left.

I used to miss us but now, i am just picking up lost times and smiling at them.

2010-07-02T07:45:00.001-07:00

Hello hello, readers. :)

Yes, i am well aware, i haven't been the best blogger. I haven't been really blogging for a long long time. Loads&loads of stuff are going through my mind nowdays but for the sake of my sanity, I am not gonna let it repeat out here, on my blog.

Life has been getting harder and harder for me. I am so donwright confused. I mean,

i don't even know how to think or feel anymore, its become some sort o a disorder. Still, i am holding up, so yeah. :)

If i said i missed you, i'd be ruining it, us.

Well, i won't cos i don't even think i do anymore. &i am truly happy for you, that you found someone to love.

&i am so lazy to upload the picture's of my birthday hang out with my friends from the other day so, would you guys mind by just checking them out on Facebook if you want to?

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=178267&id=523699031&saved#!/album.php?aid=178267&id=523699031

Awesome epic picture's there.

Two things tomorrow. A nice afternoon with Shweta&Grace who i've not seen in ages and a dinner at night. I agreed to it, anyways. :)

Sickly&sore.

2010-06-28T07:07:00.000-07:00

Nothing could have been better than that one night. :)

I am so sick&tired right now.

Sorethroats, headaches, fever & bodyaches are set to take me over. Meaning, no school for me tomorrow. &i hate, really hate being sick.

&Karate Kid fever is still in me! I cannot get over how awesome that movie was.

Jaden Smith, you still have my vote! :)

Today was a fairytale. :) A real real fairytale.

2010-06-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up early early today to go down to MidV to catch The Karate Kid with Adam. :)

Movie was at 10.45am.

100000/10.

I could tell Adam was going crazy about the movie. Hahaha.

Jadennnnnnnn, i love youuuuuu. :)

Met up with the rest after that and had the best of the rest of the day.

&my night ended with a bang!

Thank you so much Bestfriend, Sharmaine, Briana, Lilian, Adam, Mun Hon & Weng Ian.
I'll never forget today. Not now, not ever. :)

Updates & more picture's tomorrow.
I have about 210 of them. You do the math.

&its officially the 27th of June, 1.17am. :)

Excited much? :)

2010-06-25T07:54:00.000-07:00

I cannot wait for tomorrow!

&catching Karate Kid with Adam tomorrow. & then meeting up with the rest!

Jaden Smith! Cutecutecute, cutest! :)

Never say never.

2010-06-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

&if i don't pass my BM paper, sigh.

Its Hari Guru tomorrow & i have no idea how i persuaded myself to get my ass there. I never attended Hari Guru since i was in like, form1. Gosh, my mummy just goes on saying that i am such an evil kid who has no sense of appreciation.

Well then, I am sorry. I just never really liked the teacher's i got. :P Okayokay, i am just some silly bias kid. Gimme a break will you?

Ohoh&i got to watch Obsessed today on freakin' HBO. AH, you HomeBoxOffice, you've never failed me have you?

I've been wanting&wanting to watch this movie ever since it came out last year in the big screens! I mean, until TGV, Sunway Pyramid shattered my dreams by having such a longlonglong queue.

The movie's so awesome lah, can? :)

Except, i didn't finish the entire movie as it was already into the next the next half of the movie. & i am so begging HBO to do a replay. Which, right, i am sure they will.

Rantsrantsrants, when will it stop right?
Now.

X.
I am turning older in a few. AH.

Because i am just so lucky. :)

2010-06-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

School's been so terribly terrible.

I keep getting assignments and exam results thrown at my face. Gosh.

I really want a break eventho' the new term just started a mere 3 days ago. Okay, point proven, I am not as strong a student as i think i am.

&&Whats with everybody moving away to Tumblr nowadays? Hah, makes me question my loyalty on whether i should move there too.

Hari Guru's on Friday, & another awesome Saturday's coming up. I cannot wait. :)

&Drats. I am in the middle of a silly shoe crisis now.

Tublrrrrrrrrr.

Cry me a river.

2010-06-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

I am sitting here in front of the laptop. &I can't help but cry.

I can't help but having the continuous thinkings that its all my fault.

Sometimes, we all say stuff that can never be withdrawn.

Obviously & quite clearly, i shouldn't have ever said that.

It is all my fault whether or not people say it isn't.

I can't help but thinking& wondering why i ever said the words that i said.

How could i possibly not have realised that i'd cause so much of damage.

If i had one chance, just one, i'd turn back the clock so i could see both of you happy again.

I should have known better. &obviously, i was being too naive.

I have got to stop ranting right here. Mumbling again.

Tell me where have you been. :)

2010-06-20T05:00:00.000-07:00

Another nice relaxing Sunday. :)

Okay, maybe not so much, but, you get my drift.

Anyways, the group&i decided to ditch choir practice which until now i feel so terrible about.

nevermind, whether or not its my birthday next week, i am still going. i hope.

&yes, as almost everyone has realised, the holidays have come to an end. Double boo, can?

It just flew by even before i think anything ever happen. Wait, so not true, but nevermind.

AH. Its back to that hellhole tomorrow, :( but, i am still looking forward to see all my classmates again & spend the next silly glorious days with them.

That reminds me, i still haven't printed the Moral Project photo's for Carl-Yen, shoot.

&its back to more and more commitments with school work, society commitments, blahblahblah.

I just wished that the holiday didn't fly by so quickly.

Anyways! I have gotta go now, i have a small test at tuition tomorrow night, (which i've been ditching for a month, die.) & i really need to get my act together and start studying.

All of you, have fun at school tomorrow,(i hope).

Theres always a silver lining to every cloud right?

Sorry, i know that didn't work too. :(

bestfriend, bestfriend, bestfriend, cheer up! You're gonna see my face almost everyday in school starting tomorrow & i hope you don't get sick of me. &yes, advices are hereee.

& beyondddddd.

2010-06-19T08:10:00.000-07:00

Woke up as early as 9am today to head out for some practice.

Daddy came to pick me up at 12.30pm & then we headed down to KL.

Spent some time at Times Square's Starbucks & was online with the bestfriend. Had a Frap. Pavilion after that. Did the exact same thing at Starbucks with Ice Cold Lemon Green Tea. ;)

Westin Hotel after that for tea with Aunty Faridah & the family. Awesome, awesome place.

& then daddy dropped my lill' sister & i at Sunway to watch Toys Story3!

Managed to catch up with The bestfriend there for about 2ominutes.

Movie started at 7pm.

I have to admit, this is one super lovable movie. Even the part where Buzz Lightyear turned Spanish. The crowd was just slapping themselves&roaring with laughter!

5/5.

Nothing else to be said tho'.

It caught me to the coreeeee.

2010-06-19T00:55:00.000-07:00

When he said forever&always, right?

Urgh, all this bullshit.

Its 1.58am.

2010-06-16T10:57:00.000-07:00

My sister is just a few footsteps away from me but yet, we decided to turn on our webcams. AH.

Cheer up. :) -i hope you know who you are.

Shower.

2010-06-16T02:58:00.000-07:00

Do you guys know what this is? :)

Ah. On the contrary, today was really a good day.

I mean, productive good way. & i did something that some people think i wouldn't be able to do in a million years.

What is that? I bet you're asking&asking.

EH, don't you know that curiousity killed the cat? HAH.

Okay, you know what? I cooked.

I can already hear some of my friends say, :"Mel, HUH, (mouth gaping so big a watermelon could fit in there) you cooked? Eh, don't try to kill us man. We've been nothing but good friends to you."

Heyheyhey, wait a minute now, i can cook! (stares at you innocently) What makes you think i can't?

Somemore right, i cooked curry chicken. I chopped stuff& didn't see a pool of blood oozing from my fingers/ can't i get credit for that?

C'mon, i was the girl that almost sliced her finger off while cutting a lemon to make lemon juice a few years ago. &all that came out from it was, Bloody Lemony. So there. :)

Okayokay, dinner tonight's at prolly a nice restaurant up here in Ipoh.

So,i shall go now & stop ranting.

Just finished an hour of Skypeing with Everlyn @Melbourne, Australia.

Its freakin' 4.10am

2010-06-15T13:06:00.000-07:00

Brazil.
You so have not let me down. :)

LAUGHEDOUTLOUDMUCH.

2010-06-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

Today wasn't productive. Well, it sorta was & sorta wasn't.

Went to the airport (again) to pick my aunt&uncle up as they just came back from Greece.
Followed them down to Ipoh along with my cousin and i slept all the way down, almost all the way down that is.
Got here, unpacked & saw millions of goodies that my aunt & uncle brought back from Greece. Mmmm, chocolates! AHA, I am well aware that i am fat, okay? anyway, you people are just jealous, so yeah. *runs away laughing. :)
Anyways, went out for some nice Thai Food after that, went for a walk & laughed all the way.
Had a nice shower and now, here i am in my uncle's nice spacious house.

&so, its not that much of a productive day, was it?
Parent's coming down tomorrow.

My birthday is in 12days! No plans on where to do it, nothing. How?

Backkkkkk. Missed me?

2010-06-14T09:23:00.001-07:00

Its 12.31am now, & i am not going to sit here & slowly put up the pictures from my holiday one by one.
Updates prolly tomorrow! :)

The morning chills just had to get to me.

2010-06-11T20:24:00.000-07:00

Hello, hello.

Yes, no more talking or bashing people on my blog anymore. So you people can just come back, well, if you wanna, &stick to my boring boring blog.
No more drama lah, okay?! I had enough. Piss me off if you wanna, i'll give you more. okay, i was just joking, please don't give my morning talk any heat.

So, todays another day i am down at Singapore.
I've never actually realised how differently all the Singaporeans dress. Like, some of them have really really good taste. I've been staring & spoting people already now like some kind of a bloody stalker.
Ohoh, & i love the Singapore Sale. I tell you, i got a new top, sunglasses& a nice belt for only how much? 30SGD altogether! &no, they're not from those silly ripped off shops.
Seriously, i needa stop talking as if i have no sense of anything else to say.

Came home late & watched the World Cup with my cousin brother.
Laughed laughed laughed and then hung out.
Went to bed at 2am.

That was pretty much my day & so,
i have to go out now.

I don't wanna fight. :( please.

2010-06-11T08:38:00.000-07:00

I've never felt this way ever, about someone in my entire life.
I don't understand why the hell i would do such things.
I can't believe i thought you were actually for real.
I mean, how could it have been, right?! &now, i am hearing all sorts of stories. Jumping here & there. The bloody story books been flipping&flipping eversince the other day.
I am already getting headaches from even hearing from people about what you have to say.
I really like you. Even now, i still take you as my friend.
But, how can you even not be the least bit concerned? Apparently, that say meant something to you.
But what? It meant shit? Urgh.

Okay, you know what. Lemme get straight to my point.
Listen;
You're still my friend, althought i don't know. I think we're not on speaking terms now.
I still wanna be just friends & to just like talk, as if nothing happened.
But this is what i want. What do you want? I need you to tell me.

I don't even love you or whatever else anymore.
Friends, thats the word.
I don't wanna dwell on this forever, wondering why i did this, why i did that.

Theres so many things out there that i rather have not done than have done.
Just tell me,
could we stay friends?
I just don't wanna be enemies. I've never been real enemies with anyone else. Whats the point of getting pissed, right?

This was such a waste of my time.

2010-06-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

I just lost all my blogging mojo.
I'll be in Singapore for the next few days. Meeting Shweta Nandy at Esplanade Mall at 7pm tomorrow.
I can't wait.

I can't, not anymore.

2010-06-08T08:04:00.000-07:00

I'll be gone for a few days.
I am sorry.

&oh, i've never appreciated my cousin's in Australia this much until today. Thanks, guys. :)

Together at the top.

2010-06-07T09:20:00.000-07:00

I just had such an amazing day.

At the beginning, we were so quiet. I didn't say much, neither did you. I actually wanted to go home. But, after we sat down at Subway, somehow we just started talking. & did you realise? I couldn't keep my eyes off you.

The movie was just so awesome. I don't even know whether it was the movie or, youknowwhat. ;) Things have definitely changed since you came along, its like, the way we just keep turning to the side, looking into each other's eyes. The warm touch of your skin &everything else.
Baby, ohmygosh.

I was so so scared when i received your text, different emotions just overpowered me nd i just couldn't bring myself to reply your text. Yes, i am sorry. I didn't get to let you finish. I should have at least told you i needed to shower.
I don't wanna go through what i had to endure last year, i don't want to go on being all let down for another 5months or at least for God knows how long.
I agree, we should hang out more && you needa come to my party. I need you to come.
I promise, i'll do whatever it takes to go for your concert too. :)

Well you are the only exception,
you are the only exception,
you are the only exception,
you are the only exception.
& i am on my way to believing.

I'd lie awake to miss you/.

2010-06-06T11:22:00.001-07:00

DoubleX.

These few days has been awesome, but tomorrow would be awesomer. :)

Impossible.

2010-06-05T04:35:00.000-07:00

It just feels so different. ;)

but i am still wondering, so curious.
I mean, what if i make a mistake and fall all off the cliff again?

i am scared yet so psyched. Trust, another damn issue,

If i had you.

2010-06-05T02:57:00.000-07:00

Picture's picture's of yesterdayyyy.

That boy is a monsterrrrrrrr.

2010-06-04T07:53:00.000-07:00

Updates, tomorrow.
X.

/Just light a cigaretter, hush.

2010-06-03T04:48:00.000-07:00

Last paper tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwww!
can you wait?

Off to hang out with the bestfriend, Leandra & my bestfriend-in-law tomorrow.
So looking forward to the comfort time.

You freakin' absurd chinese paper. You ain't gonna get to me.

&you stupid people, leave my bestfriend alone. Don't be jealous.

A kiss under the bleachers when nobody looks. :)

2010-06-02T05:12:00.000-07:00

Exams, Ah, such a hard time.
Accounts yesterday was just giving me the spine chillers. I took so much efford to get ready for it, Tuition and what nots, but i ended up, blank. I couldn't do a thing, that was so so hard for me. i couldn't take the pressure, i left the class with watering, tearful eyes. I couldn't help but to walk around that school practically bashing myself inside my heart and trying not to create a commotion. But it didn't work. I couldn't stand it. Right in front of the school's entance, i started... sobbing. It was so hard for me to think about the disspointed looks on my parents' faces when they see my results. All the money that they put into my private tuition fees.. wasted. It was such a hard to picture scene.
I caused myself so much embarrasment, and really i wish i could have just held back everything 'till at least when i was alone. But i just couldn't.
Thanks to the bestfriend and Leandra who stayed and comforted me 'till it was time for me to go home. They even bought for me Milo to give me that extra comfort.
Thanks, hons. :)

These times are just literally the toughest.
I wish i never had to endure.

One of my teacher's said to me today:" Don't ever let people see you crying, you were one of the students that i respected, you're a strong girl, take it in. Who cares if you even fail? You tried your best."

This is one of the teachers i really respect if most of you didn't know.

I could really use a wish right now,

2010-05-29T08:04:00.000-07:00

Was awoke by the bestfriend today and was talking for about half an hour until about 9.36am. Gosh, i am so glad i woke up to talk to her.

Studied.
Went out for lunch with the family and then off to Taipan to by something. Went home and quickly showered. Put on some clothes (obviously) and then headed o Eric' place for a ride to church.
Met Shirley & Joanna there and had fun. Joanna's aweseom mummy, Aunty Alice dropped me home. Found my favourite aunt & uncle already here and we wen to Empire for dinnert at Chilis. Bought a new top and ran into Dickson.
Thats it. :)

Gotta run now.

Like shooting stars.

2010-05-28T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hello, hello all. :)
I am finally gonna have a proper update.

XX.

School has just been crazy these days mainly 'cos exams are going on and just trying to achieve what i want to achieve is hard, real hard.
I really miss the care free days back in form 1&2. Its so relaxed, carefree.

So anyhooooo,

Went to church today for some practice thing. Went out with Joanna, Shirley & VK after that to have a drink.

So glad that VK could drop me home.
Came home, studied a lil' and then i got to hit the gym.
My gosh, the gym has never been this quiet before. Even all the usual guys who are always working their asses off weren't there. Hmmmm, i suspect that Wesak Day has something to do with this. (not in an offensive way :D)
Had dinner at Papa Rich with my lil' sister after 2 hours of working out.
Mummy & daddy cme and picked us up after that as they went to Empire Shopping Gallery.

& now, my mum wants me to go study now.

*i know this isn't a proper update, but yeah.

& This is American Idol! :)))

2010-05-28T02:17:00.000-07:00

Lee Dewyze.
Ain't he just the cutest? :)

Aeroplanes.

2010-05-27T06:57:00.000-07:00

A nice holiday tomorrow.

Exams are finishing in a week.

Economics on Monday. D:

I've gotta run now.

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, OHMYGOD.

2010-05-25T07:58:00.000-07:00

Exams are seriously becoming such a catastrophe.

I can't wait for the weekend.

Studying just sucks that much.

History tomorrow, mega mega, sigh. :(

Exams my bossum.

2010-05-23T02:26:00.000-07:00

After church today, mummy and daddy put sis & i at home to study for our upcoming examinations.
They went down to KL with the Aunty & Uncle.

I was so bored after a while, i decided to make,
Herbal Jelly! ;)

Mmhmmm.

Exams tomorrow. Sigh.

You're beautiful matter what they say :)

2010-05-22T08:54:00.000-07:00

I am well aware that this is my 3rd post of the day!

Went out to Mid Valley earlier on with 'ze family & my aunty and uncle from perth. Had dinner at Fong Lye and boy, it was good. We sat there for an entire hour!

Shopping after that.
Spotted Body Shop before going into Zara.
they were having this crazy sale with all the ladies rushing in and out of there buying and buying bags loaded with stuff.
So, we ditched Zara and made ur way in there. :)

Mummy bought us a nice bag of stuff and then headed off!

Oh my, i love the body lotion glitter and their known-for body butter. Smelling delicious!

Church tomorrow morning.
Goodbyeee!

dumdeedumdeedummmmm.

2010-05-22T02:13:00.000-07:00

Thanks Aunty.
I am sorry i called your arrival doomsday.

Getting nervous!

2010-05-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

Hello, hello, hello & hello, again! :)

Woke up early early today (uhm, does 10.45am count?!).
Daddy took us to SS15 to see our skin specialist, Dr. Ranjit.
Finally, stupid rashes due to the weather are put to a stop. Couldn't have felt anymore relief.
&&&, guess whatttttttt?

I got to camwhore. B-)
But y'know, i've been craving to camwhore for so long and then, i was so hot and sweaty from coming back from the, how should i put this,
"wild" outdoors,
so, you guessed it. Of course it doesn't come out totally great. But to some of you, it might be totally horrific, but, at least i got to put a temporary stop to my cravings.

Aunty and Uncle are so nearby now, mummy went and picked them up from the airport and then took them for lunch. (which they are now at! D:)
& so, doomsday is almost here. OH MY.

and i am totally in love with Longchamp now. Even crazy thinking of getting another bag! It's super convenient too.

Till next time.

Divinity.

2010-05-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

Had my usual Friday classes at school today and everything was okay.
and i feel super good about getting my Interact uniforms measured out today along with the bestfriend & Leandra. :)

Exams are in approx. 2 days time and i really feel like squeezing my head, allowing all of my brains to just ooze out and then, i'll just not have to study. But lets not get to the almost impossible now, shall we?

Some things happened and i am so glad that they are over. Leandra, just if you're reading, i am so glad that you understood. It was right for the bestfriend to tell you instead of me and her just keeping it in ourselves.

Sharmaine, if you're reading this,
I really want things to go back to the things that they were. You've been spending so much time with Weng Ian and i don't know if i can say "we" but i feel that our friendship's been abandoned.
Do you think we can work things out? I guess Suetteng misses you too.

Just got back from the gym with Leandra and i feel real good after working out.

Got my Longchamp too. :) Thank youuuuuuu. <3

Mum's making me go study now, exams are just around anyways,

i better go.

I'll be backk.

Aunty and Uncle are coming down from Aussie tomorrow. Doomed.

and i really wanna camwhore. D:

That would be the best therapy for me.

2010-05-19T05:22:00.000-07:00

Hello.

If you've read this post and are wondering why the previous things i sad here are not here anymore is because i've deleted them.
So there.

Born to be wilddddd.

2010-05-17T02:32:00.000-07:00

BORED TO DEATH.

Love is our resistance.

2010-05-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

BOOHAHAHA.

I am back from school and take a wild wild guess on whyoneearth i am online at this time of the day. ('cos most people know i never come online in the afternoons). Well, its 'cos, daddy's home and i have the broadband.

School was notbad today. Better than i expected at the very least. Had my new pink (seriously pink) watch on today at school. The guys were all laughing over it and calling it cool. Putting it on and going all pink Ben10 and calling each other gay. But the girls, mhmm, not so much. Funny how this works, eh? :)

AH. EXAMS ARE AROUND THE CORNER. OMG.
I am not going to make it through this time. I am so afraid my results are gonna come out all shitty. Crap. You know what?
I am going to go start having my shower and studying now.
I have my new White Mud Blackhead reducer from The FaceShop on my nose right now and i have to get it off anyways. Smells good. Liked!

I'll be back real soon.
Toodles.

Teck Meng; "Melannie, (holds my watch at me) this is a Rolex watch. Limited Barbie Doll Edition. Its only RM6,999. Buy now.

HAHAHHA. Jokes on him.

Walk away, walk awayyyyy.

2010-05-16T05:27:00.000-07:00

Hello there! :)
My blog has been revamped and! AH. Finally. A different taste from that old boring white template i used to have. Classic, i call it.

Anyhoo, its already Sunday, night.
Sunday night?! School tomorrow is gonna be a bore, i can already tell. I have this like, wicked kid idea of telling mummy that teacher's day celebration is tomorrow so i can skip school! But, stupid me. If i do that, it only means i have to literally go to school on the real teacher's day celebration.
Wise, Mel, so so wise.

Its almost a week since i went out to watch the Bounty Hunter premiere. I would say, the movie was good. Well, at least i enjoyed it.

15.05.2010.

About yesterday, i didn't get tot go to Cydney's party! Tho', i saw the picture's on Facebook. It looked like an awesome night! You people were lucky you guys went. :)
AH. But, i did a lil' shopping at OneU and you should see the amount of new accecsorise i got from Forever21. I just went mad. mad. mad.
And somemore, right, Nose had sales. Crazy mad wild sales. And i saw the cutest pair of ballet flats. Grabed it, fast.
Went home at about 10.15pm.

Header, what should i do with it?

-Melannie.

There's just so many ways to love you.

2010-05-15T00:56:00.000-07:00

too bad i can't make it to Cydney's party tonight. Would've been great, i predict.
Wanted to hang out with the bestfriend too. But i guess i'll have to save that for some other time.

hmmm, Longchamp? :)

Going out ith the famly to celebrate a late Mother's day tonight.

I'll update more soon!

-Melannie.

Dancedance;

2010-05-14T07:46:00.000-07:00

I totally lost my blogging mojo. & its a freakin' Friday night. Not normal.

I miss Friday nights where i have someone to talk to throughout the night.
But it obviously doesn't mean i miss whatshisname. :)

Gonna start studying now, bye!

-Melannie.

Suffocate;

2010-05-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

Hello there. :)

(nerd talk)

I really really need to push myself to study more. There's only about 2 more weeks 'till exams and i am not even prepared. I've been so lazy throughout these past weeks that i am actually getting sick of being so bloody lazy.
How i wish i could split myself into two and start slapping myself to wake up and go study.

By hook or my crook, i have to get things done already.

I hate it when times get nearer to exams.
Plus, i am gonna be so busy this Saturday. I just want time to breathe and actually concentrate on my studies.

Not able to attend Li May's or Cydney's partiew through the entire weekend. Have to go to KL and celebrate late mummy's day.

My days at school are getting into such bores. HAH. I've just lost all mood to go to schooling and all i wanna do is stay at home. No luck there obviously.
Had lunch with th bestfriend, and Cydney today. Was suppose to head to the gym earlier on with Leandra but decided not to. Friday then.

I'll be back, soon. :)

-Melannie.

Happy Mother's Day!;

2010-05-09T05:30:00.000-07:00

Is there such a song as "Happy Mother's Day"?

Mummy,
Thank you so much for always being here for me.
You were the one who was here to tske care of me while i was ill these few days.
I know i can be the most ignorant, annoying, selfish, inconsiderate, demanding daughter at times,
but i "swear" that, i never meant to.
Thank you also for the countless times you've beared with me.
Life would never be the same without you.

I hope you like the present i got you.

okay, this is a picture i took off the internet 'cos i don't wanna waste my time with the camera. :P

I love you, mummy.

-Melannie.

Love Could Change Everything;

2010-05-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

I am sick.
Oh gosh. First, it all started when i got those throbbing headaches in school and couldn't walk straight. Mummy then took me to the clinic after school.

When i thought i was okay, Doc said;"Low blood pressure, migrain & slight fever. Possible viral infection."
Cam home, took a nap and woke up all hot all over. The fever just got worst and i couldn't even have my shower properly for goodness' sake!

So, i ended up lying/sleeping in bed 'till the next day. Mummy then woke me up before she left for work, gave me a panadol, made sure i was alright, and told me that i didn't have to go to school.

Woke up at about 11am on Thursday morning and realised Glee was on. dragged my very tempted self to watch it and then headed back to snoozy land.

The next time i woke up, mummy was be myself feeling my forehead and saying how my temperature went up.

So, i had to cancel accounts tuition. My piano teacher still came but she said i looked so pitiful.

So, yeah, i was dragging myself up and down the house(if i need to go up and down) the ntire day.

ANDDD, i went back to school today.
My classmates all thought i was in a bad mood 'cos of the look on my face. But after they all saw how i was shivering all the time and how i couldn't speak properly. they realised i was still sick.
Okay.
Went for Interact Club's meeting today after school.

##At night##.
Daddy took me to True Fitness @Taipan to get my gym membership sorted out.
After daddy left for home, i went to work out and actually felt alot better despite still being a lil' shaky.

Walked to my sister's dance class up the road after that and then daddy took us to have something to eat.
Came home, had my shower and here i am.

Sports day tomorrow and i am not going for i have not ben to school's sports day's eversince i was in form1.

Gotta run now!

P.S. Miss Stephanie, _l_ Seriously.

-Melannie.

Flaws & Whores Of The Objection;

2010-05-04T05:04:00.000-07:00

Now, things make things clear.

My title has nothing to do with anything i wanna blog about. (well, at least, nothing to do with the whore part)

okay, i really don't know what i wanna say or blog about.

But, here's the thing. I don't wanna fight anymore.
The bestfriend and i have been through a few things too many this year.

Uhm, Weng Ian, Sharmaine? Could we all please shake hands and have a group hug? :(

We're all good friend's right? why should we continue being this way?
If all we do this shoot stuff back at each other all the damned time, then, you see, there's not much of any reasons why we should even be talking or let alone, looking at each other again.

We've been good friends for so long.

if one of us has some flaws then, the rest of us should have some flaws too.
After all, its not like you're no human.
Don't you guys see what this will only lead us to?
It'll just make sure that we're left with nothing.
We each have a problem and should come to our senses that blaming each other is bullshit and we should just all make sure we fix ourselves up and then help fix others.
If i hate you, then you'll hate me.
If i forget, will you too?
C'mon, whats this little thing to stand against everything else special we had in our years of friendship.
I don't wanna see any of us fall apart, would you guys want to see that then?
If your answer is yes, then i am sorry.

Every single thing that we put into this circle of replationship just wen down that smelly and dirty drain that we all dread to see.
Honestly, this entire post is not for me to pinpoint you and talk about your flaws.
This post here does not pinpoint who exactly i am talking about.
its for all of us.
I've talked to the bestfriend, and she knows all this things that i am saying here.
so, its up to you two to read this.
Not reprimanding or anything as i don't have the right to.
I was born human and i have 89729326371529109 of flaws too.

So, i was just wondering, is it possible for us to just all forgive and forget,

to just pick up the broken pieces and stick them together again,
to uncomplicate what has already been made complicated?
Apologizing again and again is not going to help.

We all need to talk things over.

I miss all the fun times hanging out with all of you guys.

I am really sure after so long, there's nothing we cannot fix.

I love you guys to bits and pieces with all my heart.
i don't like the sight of that smelly, dirty drain, do you?

*i am sorry if i offended any of you. :(

-Melannie.

Church Camp #1;

2010-05-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

Eunice and i tagged along in Uncle Steven & Daniel's go down to Kamppar for our Church Camp '

2010.
Had dinner at Bidor town just before arriving and we got to Grand Kampar Hotel at 8pm sharp.
Joanna came to the lobby to wait for me and i followed her to put my luggages at our room.
Had service and headed back to the room at 10pm.
We hung out in the room and fooled around with her laptop and were camwhoring away.

and so, we decided to watch, "Dear John" which isn't out here in M'sia yet but we somehow managed to get hold of the show. ;)

Pictures!

# End for Day 1.

Oh, and Jo, if you're reading this, i still think Channing Tatum is hot.

-Melannie.

Campo;

2010-04-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

Off to camp tomorrow at 5pm
,

And catch up with the entire season of Glee with Joanna! :)

OH. and i got my Country Road bag flown in all the way from Aussie today.

Perfecto.

Gonna catch AI now.
Won't be updating till i get back.
See you, people. ;)

-Melannie.

In Moderation;

2010-04-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

Of coffee breaks and account lessons.

Hello there.
Had my first accounts' tuition today for 2 hours.
My tutor, Darren came late, :( and i finished my tuition so late.
But before tuition, had a laughing session with the bestfriend on the phone.
My Gosh, that girl can really laugh!
*inside joke.
OH. and i might go get my gym membership with Callie this Friday since i found my new love for hitting the gym.

Away for camp this Friday to Sunday.

Sharing my hotel room with roomie, Joanna! *centre.
Gnna have a blast with the DVD player and Glee all together!

Later.

-Melannie.

Happy Brthday!;

2010-04-27T06:21:00.000-07:00

Happy 18th Birthday, Adwin! :)
i hope you had a good one.

Ohyeah, ohyeah,

-Chai Wai Sum

-Wong Kee Zheng

-Karthiik

-Wayne

Happy Birthday to you guys, too. :)

P.S; i don't have some of your photo's cause, you don't have any on Facebook! D:

-Melannie.

BOOSHA.;

2010-04-26T04:32:00.000-07:00

NO looking back.

Almost every guy, in school is laughing at my hair. D:
i am very aware that i looks all shitty when i tie my hair up with it.
Stop laughing at me and asking me to open my hair curtains.
it hurts my feelings. HAHAHAH.

Tuition in abit, gonna be late. Crap.

-Melannie.

Can't Stop, Won't Stop;

2010-04-25T06:05:00.000-07:00

Hello, world. :)

*yesterday's picture.

Went to Pavilion with the family after church today.
Before that, we had lunch! 8)
Waled around the mall and yes, i saw SO MANY NICE STUFF that, i wanted to buy.
But of course, i was broke 'cause i put all my money in the bank already, (quite stu[idly i would say).
With no ATM's around (not that i could see),
my day of sopping was almost ruined.
but thanks to my sister, i got to buy just one thing.

SEE THIS SHIRT THAT MY BABY HAS? :))))
i now have the exact same one.
same colour and everything.
Gosh, i've been crazily looking for this shirt eversince last year.
I guess today is my lucky day. :)

So yeah. i gt home at almost 7pm but before that, mum and i went and bought some groceries from Cold's Storage.
Freakin' crazy, i tell you.
We bought RM333.30 worth of stuff.
Daddy went all; "EH, are we gonna have a war in this country or something?"

Someone's birthday is this Tuesday. :P

Anyhoo, i gotta go study now.

-Melannie.

Hey Baby, What's Your Name?;

2010-04-24T07:47:00.000-07:00

Daddy woke me up, went out for breakfast with him and he took me to have my hair trimmed. :)
Came home, did some stuff and off to Leandra' place to pick the Bestfriend and her up to go to Summit for La Salle, PJ's I.U. Day.
the event was just so good.
Good job guys, seriously!

Fire-eater's and belly dancer's.
a good act and emcee's.
it was just really well done.

Went to Mid Valley later an had dinne @ Dragon-i with the family.

Gotta go now! G'night.

-Melannie.

Down and Sweaty;

2010-04-23T07:42:00.000-07:00

Pretty picture, isn't it?

Yes, i am aware that i haven't been blogging for a week now.
Why you ask? i don't have so much time on my hands anymore. :(

Anyways,
Decided to go to the gym with Leandra today which is near our place, True Fitness @Taipan.
I had a super dee dupr terrific time with her sweating and chatting like crazy.
i mean, not to mention the embarassing fact that while doing streching, Chak Soon & David were standing just behind us. (Both of us were barely in a flattering state considering that faxt that we were so bloody sweaty.)
Dropped her off and here i am now.

Going for La Salle's IU day tomorrow at Summit possibly with the bestfriend and Leandra.
Which reminds me, i needa go call Leandra and comfirm about our transport there.

I'll talk abot IU tomorrow.
But for now, i am getting kinda sleepy. ;)

-Melannie.

Oh, Darling;

2010-04-16T08:28:00.000-07:00

Facebook status: "In and out of this sick love game. ♥"

Mother is proud of me.
-because i studied a whole bunch this few days.
I am proud of myself.
-because i can feel again.

OKAY.
so here just goes nothing.

School has been pretty awesome these days. But, i am even totally grieved to tell myself this.
I have not been even able to redeem myself to be a noisy Class Monitor and yes,
its so bloody frustrating.

And i really really really hate it when my math teacher comes up to me all the time and goes like,

"you're the monitor of the class. its your responsibility to keep the class clean."
and when i get that (which is practically almost every time i have his classes) all i wanna do is go all *gangsta on him and start going like:
"EH. WHY ON EARTH DO WE EVEN HAVE A CLEANLINESS MONITOR THEN?"
Julien, its not that i am leaving like, all hell's responsibility to you, but, yeah.
i get pretty annoyed when i get that. And i really am not putting you at fault.
you know we're good buddies. yes? :)
but nevermind, forget about my silly math teacher.

He's just old and bald. Probably sad. But who am i to say.

Interview for the membership of my school's interact club was today. (not saying anything else)

& Bestfriend, are you alright?
've been trying to reach you on messenger but you don't seem to be there. :(

-Melannie.

I Think I Am Gonna Start Hyperventilating.;

2010-04-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

this week is sooo not gonna be a simple week for me.
with tonnes and tonnes of work to do.
I pray madly that by the end of this week, i'd get to take a breather again.
Oh, please.

& at least i got to have a nice long good laugh in class today.
thanks to my crazy awesome classmates!

-Melannie.

There You Go! :);

2010-04-13T05:12:00.000-07:00

The BestFriend wanted these photo's.
So, here you go! :)

Tell me if there is more, babe.

-Melannie.

Just The Thought Of You Would Drive Me Wild;

2010-04-12T06:56:00.000-07:00

Yes, and tuiton did make my night end, OH-SO-NICELY. :)

Not feeling so well, right now.
Mentally lah.
& i needa go study so i can seriously improve academically, like, seriously.

Study the guidelines for my Interact interview this Friday.
Try my best at the signature drive.
finish my moral project.
TRY to finish my sivics project.
Pay better attention at tuition every Monday night. EHEM. :)
Finish all my homework like, Chinese and such to get higher PEBEL marks.
STUDY. STUDY. STUDY. 'cos mid-terms are almost here.

You know what?
recently right, i've felt awfully terrible as i am in the super duper KiaSu mode.
Wanna know why?
i did so badly in class this term, i don't even feel like facing my classmates anymore.
GOSH.

and yes, i am not entirely myself these days and i am so NOT gonna mention why here.

I really miss the old days when we used to hang out, babe.
Just you and me. :(
Most of the time, when Sharmaine's around its awesome too.

Rindunya.

-Melannie.

IU Day Themed India '2010.;

2010-04-11T04:15:00.000-07:00

Hello, hello! :)
IU day (International Understanding) was held in my school yesteday.
Got up as early as 5.30am to go to school eventho' i was dead beat.
reached school at about 6.40am and then to work!
First was the decorations, then the practice of our act and then sound checking and things like that.

was awesome fun and it was really a good morning.

and i tell you, the rice art below were made by our very own people. (except for the rice lah, we bought that, HAHA.)

overall we had, a crazy time changing in to our Saree's, an act, a few video's, a few speeches, 2 band performance(out very own!), Bollywood HotCutz's dance, and just alot of fun moments!

i didn't upload ALL the picture's s i left my camera with a few friends while i was busy and they were busy clicking away! so, those will be on Facebook. :)

I now have to go study and honour my vow by sleeping at 10pm.

BYEBYE.

-Melannie.

I, Your Indian Princess (Not In An Offensive Kinda Way);

2010-04-10T03:28:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :)

i know, i know. whats s funny, right?
well...

nothing.

ANYHOO,
IU day was today and i got up at about 5.25pm this morning and was really energized (considering the fact that i slept at 9.30pm the previous night.)
got there and did the decorations.
had a dilemma with my saree and yeah.

It was good tho'.
picture's will be up.
i am not sure when, but i'll definitely post them up.
GLEE time now. :)

Buh-bye, darlings.

-Melannie.

Melts.;

2010-04-06T04:56:00.000-07:00

I have that feeling all over again.
the one where my hearts skips a beat when i see your face.
the one where i get butterflies in my tummy all over again. :)

'ze close friend's are soo gonna tease me when they see this! (gulps!)

AH. I love this feeling. :)

-Melannie.

Yet, its so far away. yes?

2010-04-04T03:43:00.000-07:00

we all fall in love.

And how i sometimes just wish,
whilst i am lying down on my bed and staring at my phone, that,
i hadn't met you.
thanks for what you gave me.
i hope you're happy with her.

OH. and i sometimes wonder what would happen, right, if you walk right pass me and i start either screaming or laughing shitlessly at, umm, you.
HAHAHA.

have a good life. :)

Cheer's.

XO'S.

-Melannie.

Happy Birthday, MEI.

2010-04-04T00:05:00.000-07:00

*'cos i have no good picture's of both of us. i have touse this. and yes, like i said, my face looks so bloody big here cos i was standing nearere to the damn camera.

Happy birthday, MEI.
and yes, Mei simply means lil' sister in mandarin and i've called her that since she was young.

Have a rockin' 14th!
Like my studdity stud studded present? :)

♥

-Melannie.

CheckMATE!;

2010-04-03T09:29:00.000-07:00

WHATKINDOFSTUPIDFACEDOIHAVEHERE?!

Went to Pavilion and got home abpout an hour ago.
I do not know why, i just had no mood to shop.
i walked into freakin' Forever21 & Cotton on and i was like, urgh, nothing to buy lah.
and as a result to my "off" from shopping day,
all i was so interested in is to go into the lingerie section to hunt for, umm, underwear and stuff.

okay okay, too much info!

bought a super cute pair of Gingham sleeping shorts & i really wanna go back to the pajamas/lingerie place to buy more of these stuff.
why? because, because, i don't know. Luxury to me lah, okay?!
my mum went all; "you have nothing to buy anymore so you buy lingerie and pajamas is it?" and then laughed. D:
Mum, you're just the meanest sometimes, (jokes)

-Love Letter, Kevin Rudolph.

-Melannie.

The Rain, Its Coming Again.;

2010-04-03T02:12:00.000-07:00

You get my title's drift don't you?
or.. is there a neccessity to elaborate? :)

I just realised my "job" or rather, EX-job got stolen by i don't know who. & eventho' i felt, UMM, psychologicaly hurt(is that even a way to put it?), i won't care anymore, okay?

but whatever lah, it cost me phone bill anyway, saving money means making my parents happier and making myself happier with all the things is this world that i could buy. AH.
now thats, a good happy thing.

I've been loosing my blog mojo these days. Why? too much school work, (kononnya)

i have this bloody psychological thing in my head that tells me, blogging is a necceessity to me.
who cares whether people read my blog or not lah.

As long as i fulfill whatever i want then, thats okay! :)

OH OH! LI MAY!
i didn;t get to go for you Interact Bonding session at your school today.
i am soo sorry. i promise once we're both free, we'll hang out, okay?
Still, i am not sure whether you're reading this, but its a nice gesture, yes?

Now now, i am waiting for my family member's to get ready, so i can go down to KL and have a good Saturday evening.
Oh dear sky. (thats how people put it in those mandarin drama's on tele, right? you know, like, Tian Ah! LOL.)
bestfriend will probably be laughing at my craziness but nevermind.

i shall make her happy today. :)

Oh. and mummy gave me my pay last night.

GUESS WHO'S TURNING 14 TOMORROW?
yes, i know its easter, but, she didn't choose to be born then!

Have a good last part of your Saturday, hunnays.

& yes, i like to use the should-be word -lah.

-Melannie.

OHMYF, NO.;

2010-04-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

Babe, i really wanted to talk to you today, but you seemed a lil' busy. ;)

so, i'll tty soon, okay?
& i missed hanging out with you at KL eventho' i was so damn close.

Had fun with my family down at KL's, Shangri-La Hotel.
finally, just us, right, mummy & daddy? :)

OH. and, looking back at the picture's of me and my disgusting hair i used to have that is prolly still disgusting now
and the stuff i used to post on my own blog made a freakin' cringe.
WhatOnEarth was wrong with me?
(not that i am any better now, lah anyway.)

SHUT EYE, now.
G'night, darlings.

-Melannie.

And It Takes My Breath Away;

2010-03-31T05:45:00.000-07:00

Bestfriend,
i miss old times, :(

i seriously needa get on with studying already.
i have to do better for my mid-terms,
i just freakin' have to.

Update's this weekend.

-Melannie.